Magic

I believe in magic. Not the rabbit out of a hat kind. But real magic. The feeling mystics, prophets and poets have been trying to describe for centuries. It is carried throughout other feelings and sensations. There is magic in love, magic in rain, magic in food, magic in children. I had lunch with Penny yesterday. There is magic in her. For the first time since Mateo passed I felt hope. I miss hope. I miss Mateo. We had a nice lunch and real conversation. We spoke about magic, without ever mentioning it. We also talked art. She gave me the materials she has used for a very long time to create woodblock art. She has prints in her home of art she has made with wood blocks and stencils. I really love that idea. Every home should have art made by its owner. Sure Picasso is inspiring, and photos capture the soul of a moment, but to have your own art on the walls, that carries a hint of magic to it. I will experiment with creating my own woodblock art these next couple of months. I hope to be inspired into creation and having something to display for myself. There I go hoping again.

Oh I am also sharing a picture of my tomato plant, Sherry. I got her about two weeks ago. Even on my hardest days, the days I can't get out of bed for much, I get up to water Sherry. I make sure she is in the sun, that bugs are not taking her over. I cover her at night when it gets cold. I greet her every day with anticipation,will I have tomatoes today? I am proud to present my first sign of a tomato. Those closest to me know I have been wanting and talking about growing tomatoes for years. I am not sure why I have chosen now to do it. Sometimes I worry she won't produce fruit and I'll have to comfort her by telling her " hush now, I know, me either". I worry that she will die and then I'll be reaffirmed in the belief that everything dies with me as its caretaker. For now she is alive and well and some days when taking care of her is easier than taking care of myself I am grateful that she too has a little bit of magic to share with me.